NEW BEGINNINGS

I write this day to start fresh, a new change to my life. I have been reading and praying. A new out look on life and feelings towards people have come to mind recently that I would like to share.

In the past I would jump to conclusions and take offense to things stated. I let the little things in life bother me and held grudges. In my readings and praying I have had a change of heart about things. There are Two forces that influence my life, as well as everyone else's. Good and Evil. Good has always over come Evil and is the reason for my change of heart.

I have let Evil have it's way in my life long enough. I'm now trying to only let Good control my life. It is easier said then done I will still make mistakes. This is how one learns. The problem is not learning and continuing to make the same mistakes. Doing what is good and having nothing to do with Evil is my plan for this to happen.

I am trying to think before I talk. In doing so I can choose to speak with good and leave the bad out of my speech. When responding to people I'm trying to respond truthfully and directly to the person rather then relaying messages through someone else. When asked a Question, I want to make sure I hear it correctly so I can respond properly.

Some may say that they have heard me say this before, I have. The difference this time is I have learned where I failed and why I failed in the past. I tried to work on parts one at a time. I need to work on all parts at the same time. Example...In the past I might work at strengthening Spirituality while neglecting Family. Or work on strengthening Family and neglecting Spirituality. I've learned that I need to work at both at the same time. I may concentrate on one more then the other but that I can't neglect the other as I have in the past.

I have also learned how to pray more effectively. After my prayers, I would go about my routine. I never waited and listened to the response to my prayers. By waiting and listening to the feelings after my prayers, I have received direction and understanding to my prayers. My spirituality has increased. My love for my heavenly father, myself, and family has increased.

So with this said I'm trying to start a new beginning. One that I hope will benefit us all.

LEMONADE

Ever hear the quote " When life gives you lemons, make LEMONADE ". This sort of describes where I'm going with this blog.

Life has dealt me a bunch of lemons or so I feel. I'm 56 years old soon to be 57. I was always active in my life until I had open heart surgery at the age of 49. My surgery was needed because I had an aneurysm on my coronary artery the size of a cherry tomato. It was tied off and 2 bypasses around it has kept me alive and going. I have other heart issues through no fault of my own and has left me disabled since the age of 50. This is where the lemons come in. Like I stated before, I have always been active. Since the surgery, my life is a great deal less active. Any physical activity for more then ten to fifteen minutes leaves me gasping for air, nauseous, or almost passing out. This has been very depressing, and very frustrating for me. Nothing more can be done to improve my health and exercising is limited. As the doctors have said it is as good as it is going to get. I have had to learn to deal with it. One might ask, how do you make lemonade with that? First I had to decide what I wanted to do about it. Second how to implement it into my life.

Here are Two ways I have learned to deal with it and live too my fullest.

1. SPIRITUALITY
I learned that if my spirits are not up then I'm useless, not only to myself but to those around me. keeping my spirits up are done in various ways, through scripture study, reading and pondering upbeat material, praying, attending church as often as possible, and talking about my health issues with others so that they are aware of my limitations.
My spirituality effects my family, friends, and those around me.

2. RELATIONSHIPS
My relationships need to be in tune for me to deal with my life. My relationship with GOD, Myself, my Wife, my Family, my Friends, and to the community, needs to be in order, to be an effective person in anything I do. My relationship with GOD effects how I treat my wife, family, friends, and everyone else. Same Goes for all the others in order.
If my relationships are not good ,they effect how I act and respond to situations in my daily life.

Now comes the hard part and the Main lesson that I have had to learn.
I cannot have spirituality without good relationships, nor can I have good relationships without spirituality.

The mistake I have made in the past was to try and treat each individually. The newest revelation I have learned is that I must work at this, all at the same time. Because of my health issues I have had to slow down in my activities. In doing so I have had plenty of time and opportunities to reflect back on my past and where I am now.

When I was working I was so busy with the hustle and bustle of life, and making a living, that I could not take time to smell the roses let alone take time for my spirituality and relationships. This does not mean I was a bad person, it just means I was not effective or in other words " not all that I could be". I made feeble attempts at trying to be all that I could be, but fell short of the mark.

Wisdom, Experience, and Maturity comes with age. Knowing what I know now would have helped me in the past, that time has come and gone. I can only live for now and for my future. I can only try to help the newer generation learn at an earlier time in their life the lessons I've learned by trial and error. So with that said I'm tyring to make LEMONADE from the lemons life dealt me.

Life's Good

Life is good for the most part. We all get our ups and downs. The secret is to stay up when bullets (TRIALS) come our way. I've known people that say life is always good..To that I say Bull.. There is only one person that I know of that was perfect..And he was crucified for being perfect.

Family is better then any material thing on this earth. With out family we would not be here. Our kids would not be here. Family relationships are not as important as knowing that they are still family regardless of what people say or think about them..They may be a disappointment or an embarrassment, but regardless they are still family. We all have our faults and talents..But to say we are better or worse then somebody is wrong.

EXAMPLES:
Stevie Wonder is blind but a great musician.........
Einstien was retarded but still a genius.......
Beethoven was deaf but a great composer......
the list goes on and on............................

The point I'm trying to make is, we should not put someone down or say we are better because we have or don't have the things that other people have. The only thing we do have in common is FAMILY. Whether we like them or not.

So with this said I hope and wish you the best in life......

Until next time GOD BLESS.

Life is too short to make enemies.

Life is meant to be lived to it's fullest. It doesn't mean that we have to spend a lot of money to be happy. I am very happy just being with the ones that truly love me. I am blessed with a loving wife an children that love me. I know that my grand children love me. What more could I ask for. I have an extended family of friends and relatives that I am grateful for.

The most important things in my life are: First God the Eternal Father, His son Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost. Second is my self. Third is my wife and eternal mate. Fourth is my family and friends. Fifth is my Country and Freedom.

Church has been a blessing to me. I can go to the Lord with all things and know that I am still loved. When life knocks me down and kicks me while I'm down I have comfort in knowing I have somewhere to turn and receive comfort. I believe in Reading the scriptures so the Holy Spirit can talk to my spirit and give me resolve. I find comfort in prayer and praying for those that persecute me. I have learned that if I follow Christ example I have a better day. Seek ye first the Kingdom of God and life is easier to deal with when thrown a curve.

I wish all a blessed day.

Impatient People

If there is one thing that irritates me most, I would have to say it is impatient people.

I was at Wal Mart the other day. Every where I was there seemed to be someone with little or no patients. I saw a woman with one of those self propelled carts and this person was trying to maneuver around the end of an isle. Another person was trying to go down the isle she was coming out of. This other person seemed to be quite agitated, like your in my way move that thing so I can get on with my shopping. The other person sighed and waited for the woman to move her mobile cart. You could tell that she was irritated.

Later after I was done with my shopping I went to the check out. I got in line behind an older couple. As usual there were more people try to check out then there were cashiers. This line was fairly long and moving quite slow. As the line progressed the couple started placing their items on the conveyor belt in preparation for check out. The man kept looking at his watch. He seemed irritated. The people just ahead of the older couple was having problems with their credit card and the cashier had to call for some one to help her. This really upset the man and he looked at his watch again then stated " we have a Drs. Appointment in ten minutes." I thought to myself , then what are you doing here ? The cashier started to run the credit card again and still had a problem and had to call for help a second time. The man walk around the people ahead of him and told his wife " lets go, you have an appointment in ten minutes with the Dr.". Help came, the cashier was able to clear the problem, and able to rerun the card. The older couple was able to purchase their items and depart.

Later on my way home it seemed like people were in such a hurry that I had to be on the look out for them to keep from having an accident. It was like they owned the road and was saying watch out for me cause I'm coming through. By the time I got home three people had either pulled out in front of me or passed and stopped abruptly so they could make a turn. It was like they were waiting for me.

I guess my point for this blog is to say plan ahead so you are not rushed. Life is short and important. Why put yourself and others at risk to save a couple of minutes. Take the time to see what is going on around you or you may not see anything anymore.

Have a blessed day.

On The Mend

It has been a while since my last blog. In March I got a major infection in my left hand. I spent 12 days in the hospital. The infection was so bad that my hand and forearm was swollen. I was on antibiotics and it did not seem to help. My Doctor had an orthopedic surgeon look at it. Later that day I had surgery. The surgeon irrigated my hand and two days later had it done again. I found out that my hand was so swollen that the antibiotics could not get to the infection. The pain was the worst that I have ever had to bare. I am still in pain but tolerable. I am gaining use of my hand but have no feeling in thumb, index, and middle fingers. I have some feeling in the ring and little fingers. With that said typing is now only one finger instead of two.

Life never lets you know what to prepare for, so I've learned to take things in stride and hope for the best. I've had to learn what limitations I can handle. Physically and at times emotionally this body is a wreck. The only two things that help me through the tough times are my Faith in God, and my Family. The kids are all grown and have families of their own so most of the Family support comes from my dear wife, companion, lover, sweet heart, and best friend. She has had to deal with a lot of grief because of me and doesn't complain, and it goes the other way also.

With this Sunday being Mothers Day I want everyone to know that I love her more each day. We have set a goal to get our spirituality back on track. And since doing so the adversary is not pleased and has tried to intervene. We see this for what it is and keep on going forward in our efforts. We are becoming more United in Mind, Body, and Spirit. So Janet Happy Mothers Day.

With this I would like to wish all mothers a Happy Mothers Day. For motherhood is the most respected thing on this Earth that I can think of. You all deserve the best life has to offer.

So with all this said have a good day.

Back Again

Been a few days since last blog so I'm back again. Last weekend I spent in bed keeping close to the porcelain throne. Was running with nowhere to go. So I completed a book of crossword puzzles. Been weak all week. Say Tim by now you should be able to write a country song about it "Been weak all week."

I got rid of 5 dogs last week and Janet tells me we are bringing home another small dog from Wendells. I was out side making a pen to put the pups in and only got 2 six foot sections done. Janet did the falling rock thing again but didn't get hurt to bad this time. Just strained her leg a little. After helping her up twice and wrestling fencing I was done in.

Wendell is having a Cardiac Catheterization done Thursday the 23 rd. Janet is seeing the Dr. Monday I think he is going to recommend a name change to ILEANE or a medieval name like IFALLSALOT anyway I hope he finds out what her problem is other than Hearn DNA.

Tim I see where Hollyberry carved us in stone or she was stoned when she did her last blog. Anyway it was cute.

Guess I better stop for today I'm starting to sound like a " Rambling Fisherman or is that a Rambling Irishman" besides Janet just brought me my dinner. BYEeeee.

OH good luck and be careful, word on the street is the alien mothership IS STOPPING at your house this evening. Hide while you can.